You've got a few questions so i'll address them in the order you asked :)
1. The vast majority believe it is obligatory to wear hijab, so yes we Muslim women should be wearing it. But we are all in different stages of faith (some are not ready), different circumstances (some fear families, fighting, etc), and Only Allah (Subhanhu wa Ta'ala - Exalted and Great) knows why or why not someone wears it. Regardless, your intentions should be pure and to obey Allah (Subhanhu wa Ta'ala). Also, some Muslims should not be swearing - and they do. Some should not ______, and they do. We're not perfect - Only Allah (Subhanhu wa Ta'ala) is, but we are Insha'Allah (God-Willing) trying to improve and obey and please Allah (Subhanhu wa Ta'ala).
2. I am so happy that you're interested - your entire perspective, life, mood changes. so much peace...as i said in my previous question, i cant describe it. Pleeeeasee do not let hijab stop you from converting. That is not the main pillar of faith or main teaching - it is one small aspect (3 verses out of entire Noble Qur'an). So I really encourage you to convert (only if you are ready and certain) even if you can't fulfill some aspects of Islam - it takes time to change a lifestyle etc etc. Yes, sometimes i wear hijab around the house when no one is home and LOVVVVEEE IT! it does feel so good. and then without my family, i went out in hijab once and it felt even more amazing. easier said then done - but remember just to Only Fear Allah. He is All-Knowing, All-Seeing, He can make things you thought were impossible happen, He brings ease after hardship. And you should try to care how Allah will judge you on the On the Day of Judgement because that is the only judgement (an eternal one) that will matter. this is a transient, temporary world. and in fact, even God forbid, people do stare or call you a name.. you get so much reward God-willing for your struggles!! and persevering when people are bashing you/Islam. To stop thinking this way, make dua (talk to Allah); trust Him, He is in charge and in control of everything..He can make something happen or stop it..it is all in His Will. So just trust :) "If Allah helps you, none can overcome you: If He forsakes you, who is there, after that, that can help you? In Allah, then, Let believers put their trust." [Noble Qur'an 3:160] Again, struggling with your family, you get lots of reward Insha'Allah...and when you come out of it ..it makes you stronger God-willing. and we play out situations and worry so much and what happens is usually not as bad as we made it out to be. msg me if you want to talk more about family reaction, etc. if their love is true for their daughter/sister/etc..then they of course will speak to you. they may be upset at first or for a week, they just need time to get used to the change and soon God-willing they respect and accept it. it just takes time getting used to. also..in WORST case scenario, if you're kicked out - then you can practise Islam fully and freely!!! Allah is taking care of you so dont worry whatever happens.
3. In Islam, Alhamdulillah (Praise be to God), there is an incredibly tight brotherhood/sisterhood/community...no matter if you're Black, Asian, Middle Eastern, White, Latino, etc. so if they are being good Muslims, they will embrace you and want to help and support you and take you as a friend, and as a sister :)
so i know it's daunting or intimidating, but go up to them and say hi i'm a revert or considering Islam.. or 'Asalam alykum (peace be upon you) sister, i'm a new revert etc etc')...just go up to them.. in Islam, it is important to have a supportive group..it explains that we take on the behaviour/faith of our friends so we always should try to be in good company and have Muslim friends..in real life or at the least on the internet. they no way will think you're weird (God-willing), they will love you as a sister for the sake of Allah (Subhanhu wa Ta'ala)
I wish you all the best..and msg me if you need anything, we're all here for you
some nice supportive nasheeds (Islamic songs without musical instruments):
Native Deen - Not Afraid to Stand Alone, M-U-S-L-I-M, and other songs
No Beats Necessary is also nice
· 10 years ago