Leave the house and never look back. Make a new life for yourself and be good to yourself. It will be hard at first for you, but as your life starts to get better because you want it to get better, it will get better and your will make a success of your life and not let the bad memories of the past ruin the rest of your life. Stand up and be your own person and take charge of your own destiny. When you make a success of yourself and reap the rewards of doing so, you will have the self esteem that will make you wealthy and wise beyond your current expectations. Give yourself the chance to live life on your own terms and have as your goal to succeed in everything you do and you will succeed. You are not a whiny teenager, you are a teenager who wants out of the situation and you feel as though your back is against the wall. Your back doesn't have to be against the wall were you to take a stand for yourself and not allow yourself to be in the situation you are in right now. You will not loose your sanity were you to take control of your life, so do it. Take control of your life and make it better. I suggest being good to yourself as you take control of your life. You will not be sorry you did were you to be good to yourself. Give it a try, you have nothing to loose by giving it a try and a lot to gain by succeeding. You deserve the best in life, and don't let anyone tell you anything different. You are in charge of your own destiny, so get on with it and become the best person you can be and success will be your reward for stinking with your plan to embrace life on your own terms. Good luck to you my friend, and I wish you the best in life.