Are all mushroom trips this INSANE?!?
Two of my friends and I took 1/8 of magic mushrooms each and went out to the park to trip. We got there, walked up a hill and sat on a stone bench at the top to look over a flora rich park. At this point things started getting weird, like everything was in a sepia tint but still retained its original color. The green grass covering the park warped into a sea of green bubbles and went back to grass throughout our stay at the park. I looked around and tree's were growing rapidly but in a messed up way....they were all pine trees so they grew taller and with more leaves but all kinds of other plants started growing out of the tree as well. We ate some granola bars and decided to go to my apartment
This is were it got INSANE. I feel like it forever changed my perceptions of life and Im very scared I caused permanent psychological damage because I now view the world differently, like I exposed my mind to things its just not ready for. OR I could have just 'grown up' 5 years in that one trip through my revalations (do you understand what i mean? I matured intellectually by many years in 4 hours)
My friends and I go to my apt and watched Planet earth and half way through an episode my brain just went haywire. My room seemed like it was a little bigger but with all of my posters gone and with these weird 3-D blocks of differnt sizes floating at the top. My arm felt very very strange, as it was melting. My body felt numb so I tugged at my shirt to see if I was wearing it (I could not feel it on me) and I felt my shirt go through my body like it was a ghost and I was holding it in front of me. I was so weirded out that I turned to my friend and asked " DID YOU SEE ME PULL MY SHIRT OFF?!?!?!?" With a bewilderred expression on his face, he told me that I was still wearing my shirt. I looked down and it was true and realized I had just dreamed/imagined the whole shirt-going-through-my-body- thing even though I conciously remember everything leading up to that event.
Feeling like some fresh air would do some good, I looked out the window out into the streets but my then my visual perception shifted and it was very scary and alien. I could see my room, the window, some bushes and the two buildings across from my apt but the space in between all of these things was ....nothing. everything in between my window and the bushes/buildings were erased from my reality and it was filled with a dark void like space. It was space. What I saw was just the window, bushes and two buildings....the background was the endless void of space.
Meanwhile everything in the room was morphing. My friends faces were like spinning circles with eyes and mouths. The Mac Dre poster came alive and a mini-Mac Dre walked out of the poster like the freaking girl from the ring. He started walking towards me, stopped, said "peace" and jumped out of my window into the space void I described earlier.
I sat there after Mac Dre jumped out the window, just thinking about existance, religion, life, the future, the past. The mushrooms allowed me to see everything "uncensored" or without unconcious human bias that our minds attatch to ideas. Suddenly I felt like I had reached enlightenment, I felt endless joy and understanding of existance as If i were Buddah or God. It felt as if I had spent 1000 years there sitting and thinking and finally understood EVERYTHING and had reached an Englightened state of ultimate happiness and understanding. My old self had died and been reborn with this new found knowledge.
I also saw how messed up our world is in a completely new and unbiased way only shrooms can give you ; how badly human beings treat each other, famine, exploitment, people clinging on to false hope everywhere.
I thought about human kind for a moment and then my mind went back into time. I saw everything in human history in ultra fast rewind. my shroom trip so far, the day before, my 19th, 18th,17th, 16th.....1st years of life and WAY past that. i saw world history in reverse, everything regressing and de-volving, the rise and fall of countless civilazations going all the way back to ancient Sumeria....Then My mind went going back even further, back into human pre-history where we were simple nomadic hunters without civilaztion or societies. Humans just lived simpley to exist, nothing more. My mind went even further back ; our first human ancestors started ventuing out of Africa into india, asia, europe and the americas over the course of a few hundred thousand years. REWIND EVEN MORE- now I was watching primitive ape-like people in the jungles of Africa, hiding from predators, foraging for food etc. REWIND MORE- I saw weird fish things crawl out from the ocean into a strange, creatureless world and evolve into mammals and o