when I was a little kid: EMOTIONAL PAIN
because my friend bullied me and I abused by my relative too.
It was really hurt. And the scar still haunts me for years.
Last year the psychiatrist diagnosed me having antisocial disorder.
yeah, I have phobia, friend phobia.
all the thing I do just online and studying. I don't make friend in school nor society. I even don't have boyfriend yet even though I'm 16 now.
So, now the most hurts for me is NOTHING
Cause the people said my emotion is getting dull and fading.
I have ever hurt myself too, because I was too depressed. I don't afraid with cutter or blood. Cause I'm not afraid. I don't feel sad or happy.
I wish I had happy childhood, but I could not.
sometimes I think myself is a Cyborg or Vampire.