Really answer this time. I reposted this question twice! I have HFA (High functioning Autism)?
Anyone want to guess why my mom gave me so little information ignored my passions, and said my stimming, and banging my head on the wall was annoying? She knows everything and never seems to care about it. I had a passion about ferbies and all my mom said was F!@# ferbie! I don't even share my passions with her. I hid my passion about singing from her until she found out I was good then she starts to care about only that passion. She my mom and she is a good woman and I love her but why is this?
- SilverLynxLv 61 decade agoFavorite Answer
There are two reasons - and neither are NICE things about your mother - but they are HUMAN things.
Your mother is human and does not have HFA. She does not have the same drives you (or I) do. She cannot understand your passions, especially since they are over something "childish" and "meaningless" like Furbys. She likewise does not understand your need to stimulate yourself by headbanging. She does not have passions like these. She does not feel the need to stimulate herself. Thus her reaction is that she simply does not want to deal with anyone who does these things - they irritate her on every level because they are not normal and they are disruptive of her life. That is why she is intolerant of it.
If she were not your parent, it is likely that she would distance herself from you, or create a situation where she would not have to deal with you. Unfortunately, she IS your parent, and feels responsible for your lack of "normality". So on top of being irritated by the way you act out, she also feels a very strong need to control your acting out. But instead of vocalizing these things, she just gets upset with you, and tries to control your actions and passions by yelling at you.
The reason why she gave you no information about your condition (and why my mother refused flat out to let me get tested) is that she feels like she would be a failure to admit that something was actually "wrong" with her child. Instead of finding out what the issue is and the acceptable methods of teaching and training HFA children, she assumed that your condition was made up - and that ultimately, with her own hard work, she could snap you out of it.
One day, she may come to grips with the fact that she cannot control everything (as my mother did), or she may try to control you forever via her shouting and disapproval (as with my husband's mother).
The reason why she loves your singing, but not your love of furbys is just as simple as her seeing one thing that IS annoying versus one thing that ISN'T. what will hurt her, is if you passion ever shifts (as mine does about every 1-2 years), she will be DEVESTATED that you no longer care about singing anymore and will not understand why you no longer care about it.
But if you love her, just try very hard to understand that to "normal" people, most of us HFAs are the most annoying people on the planet. That's nothing to sob over, but you should keep in mind that if she cannot share your passions that it is not such a bad thing to keep it to yourself or at least moderate the amount of time you spend talking about it. Likewise with the stimming, take it out of the room if you can. Or find other smaller things you can do to stimulate yourself (I used to spin in circles - but I can get a very similar effect from tossing my tied-back hair back and forth).
At any rate - I hope this helps a little. And don't be angry at your mother - you're just out of her helm of understanding at the moment and as soon as she comes to grips with it, she'll be far more pleasant to deal with.Source(s): Life.
- 1 decade ago
Sounds like she is proud of your singing and happy for you. It might just upset her about the little stuff, maybe she just loves you so much, that the little annoying things bother her and the good things makes her very happy.
- 1 decade ago
She probably doesn't know how to distinguish between HFA and regular autism. Go develop a passion about something like investment banking and mathematics. imho...