Sexual Obsession or just with danger? * * *?
The thing is I thing im obsessed with excitment, sex and drama as well as being crazily impulsive. I dont think of conswequences and normally dont even care when I get in trouble. 3 months ago I had ssex for the first time with my dads girlfriends son who is 24, he is the best looking person I know, but he isnt like that he doesnt prey on young girls, its almost as if I allured him into it, the next morning he kept holding me and I felt no affection for him, I do now but only because of the excitment and knowing I cant have him easily. Then there is this other guy I had sex with he's from my area and would be friends of friends, I had a sort of dysfunctional sexual relationship with him, and I wanted him because I knew I couldnt have him, I dont anymore I want the 24 year old againn.
I see my friends in relationships and they seem so happy but the thought of one makes my feel ill, All I see is boredom and no freedom as well as that Id be a horrible girlfriend. I must seem like a horrible person but im not really, I would never harm anyone I loved and would die for my friends but I know my sexual obsession isnt healthy whats wrong with me, dont say sexual addiction or something like that because its definatly not I think I have just an obsession with danger but what do I do? Im 16.