Take this from someone who has walked a similar path, it will get better eventually. I grew up feeling alone as well, I was on the low end of the totem pole with bullies, and I had few friends, and I even tried to run away as well. First thing's first: Running away will NOT solve your problems, it will only make them worse, the bet thing to do is fight it head on. As for friends, there's someone out there for anyone, and everyone. Try talking to people your not familiar with, odds are you can make some good friends, you just need to try. Putting yourself down will only makes things worse, so try to look at your positives. If you try, you will almost certainly make some friends, even if it's not right away. When you finish school, your on your own, so you won't have to deal with your parents, and if you decide to go to college, you will have a great opportunity to live a happy life with Friends & Family. If you need to talk, then I am just a message away. Hope this helps!