You are splitting hairs! The Holy Bible says: "You must be Born Again, in John 3:1-17 tell it. In John 14:6; Jesus Christ is telling the doubting Thomas: I AM The Way, The Truth and The Life,; no one comes to The Father, but through ME!
When GOD says it is time for you to come HOME; it really doesn't matter what state of mind you are in. You could be doing wonderfully and fall dead. Many athletes are doing so. Do you honestly think that is by accident? Everyone wants to put the Omnipotent / Omnipresent GOD Almighty into a box; of they think HE should be, perform or jumpt through hoops for them. Not so. GOD is Soverign. HE does what HE wants to do; for the better of those who are HIS Children.
We are to worship and praise GOD and have a personal relationship with HIS Son, Jesus Christ. GOD will ask you: "What did you do with MY Son"? You will say?......? We shall be like HIM. Simply.
The only thing you may be worried about is the "fear" of death; "how will it happen"......etc. Everybody is a bit fearful; that is being human and quite normal. However, when we are IN Christ Jesus; HE is true love, Covenant love; a love source we cannot tap into; cannot comprehend...."perfect love casts out all fear". HE gives to us, freely and along with that love comes Mercy and Grace. HE didn't give us a spirit of fear; but of Love, Power and a Sound Mind." Whose report, will you believe? Your family's? Your buddies? Neighbors? Store Mgrs? Professors? Nobody knows; but, I can only tell you what I know to be true and what The Holy Bible says. So far, GOD has never lied to me........one time.
Fear is a spirit. A defeated foe. It has been given to us 365 times in The Holy Bible. Why do you suppose GOD did that? So, we would have a verse: Fear NOT, every single day we are alive. GOD wants HIS Children, to walk in boldness. Fearless. Fierce. Not in destruction nor violence. Unless you have been called to War. Another animal in HIS Kingdom.
Fear is: "not knowing what to expect" next. Tomorrow. Next year.
And that's it. That spirit of fear can drive people to jump off buildings.
Anxiety attacks, panic attacks, heart attacks, strokes.
Tell that spirit of fear; to SHUT UP! In JESUS NAME!
It has got to leave you alone. BUT, that spirit of fear will come back again. To try and 'scare you', to take your focus off of Jesus Christ's returning to capture HIS Children. STAY Focused on Jesus Christ. Get yourself into a Spirit filled church (choose one) now GO~!...Get connected with GOD's Children. Become Born Again. Simply ask Jesus to come into your heart, life and SAVE you; live for HIM. HE will, IF you will. That simple! So simple, small children age 3 can do that. Can you?
So, what mental state do you want to be in? As long as you are Saved, it doesn't matter.
You would then go to Heaven, with a new body, dressed in purest white, that your eyes could not contain the brillance and you would be able to live there for all eternity. And it would begin NOW! Soon as you ask Jesus into your life. WOW! Does that blow your mind?
It did me too.
The Holy Bible and over 40 years walking with Jesus Christ + Missionary fields in Nigeria, Holland with YWAM / DTS and Mexico, Doctors Without Borders.