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Anonymous asked in 社會及文化語言 · 1 decade ago

請求~我想將我的見證翻譯成英文(特急)pls~~

我童年,大部分時間都是不愉快的,因為長期得不到家人的關心及愛護。少時候常被父母冷落及責備,他們喜歡罵我是「多餘的」。因為我的確是「多餘的」。我有一個哥哥及姐姐,80年代政府教育人民「兩個就夠曬數」。而我是第三個,是意外懷孕所得的。一句「多餘的」,成為我人生的咒詛,我變得很自卑,而且憤世,年少的我意識到,這個世界根本沒有人愛我及明白我。然而,我內心卻強烈渴望被愛的滋味。

這樣的成長背景,培養了我反叛的性格。我記得在我就讀小六那年,我因為屢跟同學打架,又用粗言穢語指罵老師,因此被三次罰停學。最後一次被罰停學,是永久停學,即被趕出校。那一次,媽媽竟到學校跪在校長面前,哭求校長給我多一次機會。這相信是我人生中第一次感到媽媽對我的愛及著緊。這樣的一跪不單挽回了我的學業,亦挽回了我對家人的看法。從那時開始,我立下決心要做父母心目中的乖孩子,而我實在一直的努力實踐。

可惜,事與願違,在我中五那年,亦是我人生最黑暗的一個時期,會考成績其差,又正直跟女朋友鬧分手,更令我心痛的,就是爸爸被發現有外遇。他被揭發的那天,家中只有我及父母三人,我親眼目睹爸爸因事發東窗,惱羞成怒,竟動手打我的媽媽,然後就憤然離去,這個景象我一生不會忘記,媽媽心如刀割,抱著我嚎哭,自此爸爸就再沒有回來。而我亦漸漸對這個家失去信心,甚至有討厭的感覺。

那時,我常找藉口不回家,跟朋友四處游盪,亦染上了不良的習慣,吸煙、喝酒、吸食大麻。我不想回家,不想面對這一切發生的事。我早認定我的人生是徹底失敗的。直到一個晚上,我凌晨2:00回家,帶著疲乏的身驅及一身酒氣,到浴室沐浴。突然,有一份強烈的傷感從心頭湧上,心裡不停有個聲音反問自己:「這就是我的人生嗎?」我一邊洗澡,一邊思想,然後,我忍不住,哭了,哭得整個人快要崩潰。剎那,有種想結束人生的感覺,同時間腦海裡卻反覆想起一位同學對我講的一句說:「無論你是怎樣的人,耶穌都愛你!」我從浴室跑出來,要找尋答案,耶穌的愛是怎樣的愛?我就打開宗教課才會用的聖經,從第一頁開始讀。

如是者,一連七個晚上,我幾乎每晚通宵達旦的讀聖經,讀得累了,小睡片刻,起來再讀,我感到有極大的引力,要從中找到人生的答案。第七天早上,我回到學校,我跟那位對我說「耶穌愛你」的同學講,我要相信耶穌,我倆,沈寂了一刻,忽然她哭了。然後她對我說:「過去七天,我正跟另一位的基督徒為你禁食禱告。」她講完這番話我亦哭了,這是我人生經歷最大的一次被愛的感覺,一個我對她來說是無關痛癢的人,竟然會為我禁食禱告,再者,那一刻我強烈知道這不是巧合,是耶穌在過去的七天不停的呼喚我、安慰我。這個經歷也推動我要成為傳道人,讓更多人認識耶穌,我所切實經歷的愛,是無條件的愛,耶穌能使人在絕境中找到盼望,能使失敗的人重新振作。今天,我媽媽跟我一樣同為基督徒,家人的關係變得非常密切,這個本來不可愛的家,現在卻充滿從未有過的愛,這絕對是個神蹟!

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    Unhappiness filled the greater part of my childhood because of the lack of love and care from my family. When I was very young, I was neglected and scolded by my parent, who always said I was the redundant one. In fact, I really felt I was redundant. I have an elder brother and an elder sister. In the eighties, Hong Kong government advocated "two-children family". I was the third child in the family and my birth was not planned. This "redundancy" feeling became the curse of my life. I felt inferior and antagonistic towards society. Even at an early age, I sensed that there was no one who would love me and understand me. Deep in the heart, however, I had a very strong desire to be loved.

    My grow-up background has nurtured in me a rebellious character. I remembered when I was in Primary six, I was suspended from school three times for fighting with classmates and using foul languages against my teachers. The third suspension was a permanent one, meaning that I was expelled from school. My mother knelt before the principal, begging her to allow me to stay in the school one last time. I believed it was the first time I felt my mother's love and care for me. Not only did her kneeling and begging bring me back to school, it corrected my hostility to my family. From that time on, I was determined to be a good boy in the eyes of my parent. In fact, I have been working towards this end.

    Unfortunately, wishes and facts do not go hand in hand. Form 5 was the darkest year of my life. I did very poorly in HKCEE and I split with my girl friend. Worse still, my father was discovered having an affair. There were only my parent and myself on the day my father's affair was blown open. I witnessed my father beating up my mother out of shame and anger. Then he left us angrily. This was a scene I would never forget in my life. My mother was broken-hearted and she embraced me and cried loudly.

    2009-04-17 06:58:02 補充:

    My father never came back since then. I gradually lost my confidence in this family, even to the extent that I felt disgusted at it.

    2009-04-17 06:59:17 補充:

    During that time, I hanged out using some false pretense and wandered around with friends. I also picked up bad habits like smoking, drinking and smoking marijuana. I did not want to go home and face all that had happened. I had convinced myself I was a total loser.

    2009-04-17 07:00:10 補充:

    There was one evening when I came home at 2am, tired and drunk. I went to the bathroom. Suddenly, a strong feeling of sadness filled my heart. A voice was echoing in me, "Is this my life?" I was thinking about this question while I was bathing. At last, I could not help it and burst out crying.

    2009-04-17 07:00:38 補充:

    I cried so much that I almost collapsed. At that instance, I felt like ending my life. But at the same moment, the words from one of my classmates surfaced in my mind. "No matter what kind of person you are, Jesus loves you."

    2009-04-17 07:00:47 補充:

    I came out of the bathroom. I wanted to seek the answer to this question, "What kind of love is Jesus' love?" I opened the Bible that I only touched in the Bible lesson and started reading from the first page.

    2009-04-17 07:03:08 補充:

    For the next seven nights I read the Bible throughout the night. When I was tired, I had a nap and then continued. I was deeply attracted by the Bible and I wanted to find from it the meaning of life. The next morning, I went to school.

    2009-04-17 07:03:31 補充:

    I told the classmate who had told me about Jesus' love that I wanted to believe in Jesus. There was a moment of silence. Suddenly she cried. Then she said to me, "For the last seven days, another Christian and I have been fasting and praying for you."

    2009-04-17 07:04:08 補充:

    I cried too after hearing this. This was my strongest feeling of being loved I ever experienced in my life. She fast and prayed for a person who was a nobody to her. What is more, at that moment I was fully convinced that it was no coincidence. It was Jesus himself calling me and comforting me.

    2009-04-17 07:04:24 補充:

    It was this experience that empowered me to become a preacher of God's word so that more people might come to know Jesus. The love I have experienced is unconditional. Jesus brings hope to the despair and makes the losers stand on their own feet.

    2009-04-17 07:04:31 補充:

    Now, my mother is a Christian like me. We have very intimate relations. Our home, that was once unlovely, is today filled with love not ever experienced. This is nothing but a miracle.

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