I understand the sensation. I drink everynight. Been sober for 10 of the final four hundred days. And i love it, i role exceptional, i do not get under the influence of alcohol for paintings or fundamental matters. But while its no longer that, im surely under the influence of alcohol. I had a first-rate pal, and she or he is equal means. Whenever she acquired fairly under the influence of alcohol she might date me/ and sleep with me, however each morning she didnt suppose the equal means lol. Meh, its existence, get of the alcohol, or keep on it and be completely happy. Cuz in the event you didnt understand you didnt wish to be round him while u have been sober, then that simply maybe the sober facet speaking. If you're under the influence of alcohol greater than 50% of the time, wherein your completely happy there may be wherein you must be.