do what i did.
stop caring. do what you like to do. whether that be smoke weed all day or travel the world. you are right-there is nothing to look forward to in life. people lie. no one's really happy unless they do nothing to achieve that happiness.
in retrospect, our lives are the equivalent to a blink of an eye, nothing compared to the infinite amount of time that is the universe. our lives mean absolutely nothing. the point is that you're living. so stop living in preparation for what is to come. live in the moment and enjoy life to it's fullest.
our lives have no purpose when you factor in time and universe. so f*ck it, yes? go out there and f*ck up, and have fun while doing it. that, my friend, is the point of life. the meaning. why we exist. to f*ck up and have fun doing it.
none of its going to matter when we're dead, right? so why not make the best of life?
that's my philosophy, a bit twisted in the minds of elders. (and in the mind of my therapist. haha.) but i do sincerely believe what i say.