Why do I have weird thoughts ?

When my husband and I have an argument. My first thought is, What if I passed out right now, would he care? I just cut myself that would show him.. I don't act on these thoughts but they are my first thoughts ? I find it bothersome that I even think of self harm. Its very weird I don't even know... show more When my husband and I have an argument. My first thought is, What if I passed out right now, would he care?
I just cut myself that would show him..

I don't act on these thoughts but they are my first thoughts ?
I find it bothersome that I even think of self harm.
Its very weird
I don't even know what I'm looking for in an answer does any one else experience this?
I have no fear of hurting my self. kinda scary
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