Peom..Notes From The Past 2: Today My Mother, Forever an Angel?
Today My Mother, Forever an Angel
I'm choking up in the doctors room,
His telling me it's all coming on so soon.
Like a match I start to incinerate,
I break down, I've lost my heart inside.
It's ok as I drive you home,
It's been years now, your not alone,
For once I am here to make you smile,
For once I am here for more then a while.
I've always been the one to fall back on you,
You've always been the only one whose stayed true,
Through the years of my pain and my cocaine,
You helped me keep my head on straight.
Now that it's spreading into your lungs,
You still want to smile and pretend it's ok,
Well I'm not ok I can't picture a world,
Without your heart and the way you speak.
I have always been broken, lost and confused,
I've been washed up and hurt from these drugs I use.
But in your eyes you have never cried for me,
You only tell me 'Son, it's not the way it should be'
Your smile brings me back to the days,
When life was something more then me just wasting away.
A headache is not what I feel anymore,
It's the feeling of my heart dying on the floor.
I think it's only months that you have left,
Well I'll be the first to say I've been blessed.
Today you are just my Mother
But Forever you will be an Angel.