You don't deserve that. You seem to have a fair grip on reality. You sound like you are at your wits end almost, but you are sensible enough to realize that it's not your fault, you have become the scapegoat of your family. Look at yourself in the mirror, tell yourself that you do bot deserve this bullcrap they are putting you through, and tell them you are not dealing with it anymore. If your family starts to gang up on you, don't get defensive, don't argue. Just tell them boldly and simply that they are being wrong, hateful, etc. (whatever applies to the situation) and then leave the room. Take some time for yourself! Go out and find yourself a best friend, an awesome mentor, either adult or your own age, who will listen and laugh with you and never turn you away. When your family gets you down, go to that person. You don't need the people who kick your butt all the time. Find other people who will appreciate you. But don't turn to drugs, gangs, or anything else like that. Keep up the good work. Make serving others a priority. When you do things to help other people, you forget your own troubles. I don't know your religious beliefs, but I'd encourage you to seek out God in your own life as well. And hey if you don't believe, what can it hurt to just ask and find out if there is something greater out there or not? Prayer is a great source of strength for me. Just don't give up, whatever you do. There are better things out there. Eventually you will move out and have your own life. Unfortunately not everyone grows up in the best circumstances, but life is what you make of it, not what is thrown at you. Best of luck to you. You are worth everything and you WILL make it if you try so don't despair!!!