I assume you know the work "hyperbole" which was well overused in Victorian literature. Maybe you need to look it up again. If you are thinking of suicide go do it. It's a Darwin thing of survival of the fittest. And if you die, it leaves more room for the starving children of Africa. Perhaps you might want to go there and tell them all that they should commit suicide. Or do you think they deserve to live more than you do. Sounds like you are a heavy player in the realm of screaming for attention. Bored much? There are almost 9 billion people on the earth and there is someone better than you at everything. There is someone who had more advantages, who is more beautiful, who got away with more, who is more sensitive, who is more sexual and who got a better guy than you did. Oh yeah, and several people who have already made more money than you have even dreamed of. This is a question of Ethics. I suggest that you read some of the works of Plato, who is a Greek writer with a large fan club. He's dead though. You can always "join him in death" later on. Warning: if you believe in the usual "imaginary friend" shy spirit then they're gonna get you if you off yourself. That might include the "careless" auto accident as well so be prepared if that's your worldview. Being embarrassed is all about vanity. I'm reading an interesting book now that you might like. It's called "How Green is Your Valley." Get osme more experience and stop yanking people's chain. It's clear to me you decided on summer school. Soon you will be 18 and if you have some cash you can lie on the beach at Goa and flirt with bidg ideas and intoxicate yourself on the world. Or you can put all your value in one course and miss out. "Choose your choice."