Many people believe that anorexics have perfect self control, are extremely motivated, and generally "win" at dieting. However, this couldn't be any more wrong.
Anorexics hate themselves. They are MISERABLE. The anorexics that don't die from starvation often die from suicide.
They starve, oh yes, for a little while. Some go longer, maybe, if they can distract themselves from the bread and cheese and carbs calling their names. But once that's over, they BINGE. And they binge like there's no tomorrow. Often eating out an entire cupboardful of food, making themselves sick and bloated and even more unhappy with thimselves.
And once this sick cycle is finished, if they're lucky enough for it to finish, they go into recovery. And their metabolism is completely screwed up forever, so they get fat. But they'll never be able to have the same control they once had - because they know what kind of pain it caused them and those around them, and their body just won't let them do it.
Trust me, I know. This eating disorder is freaking hell. Binge eating disorder is miserable too - please see a doctor. Your disease can have health consequences as well, and you deserve better.
Good luck, and please, please take care of yourself. You're worth more than this.
Almost 4 years of anorexia.
· 1 decade ago