Yes i relate very well. I had a best friend, she died and my life is not the same. I have no one to talk to about anything, everything, and share joy, sadness, and go to thrift stores anymore. We would go out to eat. We were never boring.. I loved her so much..
She would be there when even family members would not... I do understand..
She got really sick, and her grown children would not let anyone in to see her, I kept calling, and they would say, "mom is not well enough today to see anyone." She had kidney failure it all happened so fast.. her daughter was a nurse, i think the daughter was slowly killing her, because she was, (Her mother ) rich. So my friend would call me, and say "K please come and see me" I told her, her daughters wouldn't let me in to see her.. I'm just rambling on.. Forgive me.. I'm going through rough times right now.