actually i strongly disagree with you. let me explain. as far as your feelings, that is the way you have been taught. as for feeling worried in groups, they don't bother me. if you look on the inside of people you will learn that race does not matter. i was the only white guy on shift at a big city firehouse in America, i had no fear. in fact i felt more protected by my crew then i did at home. the rest of the crew was black or Hispanic. i could not think of a better group that i have had the honor of knowing or the honor of working with. hell as for the n word, i was called it more then anyone ( i was the white "n***** of the station). we as a society pay to much attention to a da*n word. if you ignore it , they will stop using it. they do out of stupidity and because they want to get a rise from you.
as for my fire crew, i moved 4 years ago and am still keep in touch . when i visit they take me on calls ( even in the projects), and most of the people i meet are impressed by the crazy white guy that stands his ground when he hears, "honky get your white a$$ out of here before we kill you". i heard that for 10 years at that station ( not from my crew) racism is stupid, but will never die if we don't try harder as a culture to stop it. hope this helps. JD
engineer/ paramedic 16 years