Interesting answers, huh? "Wow...tell your doctor." That sure helps heaps doesn't it? Gotta love people just trying to get points. Please tell me I at least got a smile...I was trying real hard to be comical :P
But seriously..I'm 38 years old. I can tell you first hand that the older you get, the worse it seems life can get sometimes. It's all so overwhelming. When we're very young we're shielded and oblivious to a lot that goes on in the world and around us. As we get older we face having to become independent in a world that can be down right cruel and unforgiving. We experience feelings that we don't comprehend because we're young. We face more responsibiliy, more rejection, more loneliness and isolation. Growing up is tough. I of course WAS a young adult once and I have three grown children also. My youngest daughter was a cutter and she was the poster child for "normal" or so we thought..
I would first have to ask myself if you've suffered a loss recently or if there was some significant event in your life that may have triggered these feelings. The first thing they said about my daughter was that she was doing it for attention. I'm here to tell you that anyone who's cutting for attention STILL has a serious problem and needs help. I've heard many teens say that they cut to make the pain go away. It doesn't. It only makes it worse.
I know it's hard but you've got to talk to someone you can trust. It's possible that you do in fact have clinical depression and don't realize it. You could be very, very ill and not know it. The most important thing you can understand is that this can get much, much worse. You've reached out to us for help and that's a start. Please don't stop asking. Can you talk to your Mom or your Dad? Are you close to a teacher or a friends parents? Honey you've got to get help now. You've suffered long enough and if you get to the right people I promise you, they can help you make it okay. You can feel better!! But chances are, before you can feel better you're going to have to do some soul searching and figure out what is REALLY wrong that's causing all these bad feelings inside your heart. You have to let it out to let it go, whatever it is. A good therapist can help you do that.
I know that chances are you don't want to talk to friends or family for fear they will think you're crazy, doing it for attention, or that they will make fun of you and think you're a freak. YOU ARE NOT and anyone who reacts that way, stay away from them.
I can't give you the answer. All I can tell you is that my daughter is a happy, healthy 20 year old now with her own life and a good future. But before it got better it got worse. There was a lot of stuff that she "stuffed" inside and buried and we had to go through all of that to get to the other side.
You can most likely get help in your city with no money at all if that's an issue. If you're unsure of how to do that, email me your city and state and I WILL find you someone.
Please don't hurt yourself anymore. You don't deserve that.