I was scared..since Valentines day is more like Halloween for me..because it makes it painfully more obvious how much I am being nobodys valentine..and brings back memory's of lots of hurt, and pain in my past, and reminds how jaded and numb I have become..... because I was told no spending money on a card, it's wasted money....it hurts more when someone you love won't let you love them, then it does when someone you love..won't love you. ..I am glad V-day is over because this year is like me starting over..being my own Valentine,, I have learned how much I don't really need to cater to someone who treats me like I am invisible. or wishes I was..it was a long lesson, for I have a hard time letting go sometimes. I would have totally just pretended this holiday didn't exist if you wouldn't have asked questions about it..like a month ago? I thought? that's odd...it's a real holiday after all?
that's funny !!! I put happy f-ing valentine in my question yesterday....hahaha....well time to face that snowstorm
· 1 decade ago