HELP ! 17 yr old gay teen in need for advice ASAP. ( sorry for caps )?

ATTENTION: REALLY LONG STORY I JST NEEDED TO GET THIS OUT OF MY CHEST AND SEE WHAT OTHER PEOPLE I DNT KNOW WOULD DO. WELL, IT ALL PROBABLY STARTED TWO YEARS AGO IN THE BEGINNING OF MY 10TH GRADE YEAR. ( I'M A JUNIOR NOW ) I MET THIS GUY WHO WAS A GRADE LOWER THAN I WAS, DURING GYM CLASS. HE WAS CUTE BUT I... show more ATTENTION: REALLY LONG STORY I JST NEEDED TO GET THIS OUT OF MY CHEST AND SEE WHAT OTHER PEOPLE I DNT KNOW WOULD DO.

WELL, IT ALL PROBABLY STARTED TWO YEARS AGO IN THE BEGINNING OF MY 10TH GRADE YEAR. ( I'M A JUNIOR NOW ) I MET THIS GUY WHO WAS A GRADE LOWER THAN I WAS, DURING GYM CLASS. HE WAS CUTE BUT I DIDN'T THINK ANYTHING OF HIM DURING THAT TIME. HE KEPT LOOKING AT ME AND IN MY THOUGHTS I WAS JST LIKE " EW UHM STOP STARING " RIGHT? SO FEW MONTHS FAST FORWARD STILL IN MY 10TH GRADE YEAR I STARTED TO HAVE A LITTLE CRUSH ON HIM AND STARTED TO ASK AROUND FROM PEOPLE I KNEW WHO HE WAS. HE WAS PRETTY MUCH A POPULAR KID CAUSE HIS SISTER WHO WAS A SENIOR WAS POPULAR AND KNEW EVERYONE. AND PLUS HE WAS REALLY HOT, HUNG OUT WITH THE POPULAR BOYS AND WHEN OUT WITH A COUPLE POPULAR GIRLS.
HE WAS ALSO ON THE BASEBALL TEAM SO HE WAS A TOTAL JOCK. SO I STARTED TO TRY AND TALK TO HIM AND I ENDED UP FINDING HIS MYSPACE SO I FRIEND
REQUESTED HIM AND HE ADDED AND MESSAGED BACK AND WE STARTED TALKINNG. FEW
DAYS FORWARD I ENDED UP TELLING HIM I WAS GAY AND SAID THAT I HAD
STARTED TO HAVE FEELINGS FOR HIM. HE THEN OBVIOUSLEY SAID HE WASN'T GAY
AND SAID HE WAS COOL WITH ME LIKING HIM AND TOOK IT AS A COMPLIMENT HAHA
NOT KNOWING HE WAS COCKY HE TOLD ME " ALL GAY GUYS LIKE THE GOOD LOOKING
ONES " HAHA I LAUGHED AND WAS LIKE I'M SURE LOL SO I STARTED TALKING TO
HIM TRYING TO BUILD A FRIENDSHIP. WE THEN STOPPED TALKING AFTER THAT
YEAR. BUT THEN DURING THE SUMMER BEFORE MY 11TH GRADE YEAR HE STARTED TO
TALK TO ME AGAIN ASKING QUESTIONS ABOUT IF I'VE EVER DONE ANYTHING WITH
A GUY AND HE JST GAVE ME THIS FEELING WONDRING IF HE COULD BE GAY? SO WE
TALKED MORE AND THEN WHEN SCHOOL BEGAN HE TOLD ME OVER MYSPACE THAT HE
STARTED TO HAVE DREAMS AND THOUGHTS ABOUT ME WHEN HE WOULD BE ALONE. HE
TOLD ME HE MASTURBATED THINKING ABOUT ME. AT FIRST I FELT WEIRD BUT THEN
I WAS LIKE WOW THAT'S SO WEIRD I DO THE SAME. SO HE THEN ASKED IF I
WOULD HOOK UP WITH HIM ONE DAY AND BEING SO NAIVE I SAID YAH SURE. SO I
KINDA LIKE BECAME OBSESSED AND STARTED NAGGING HIM ABOUT US AS IF THERE
WAS EVEN AN US. HE THEN STOPED TALKING TO ME AND WE NEVER ENDED UP
DOING ANYTHING I FELT SO BAD AND I REGRETED NAGGING HIM AND I FELT I
LOST SOMEONE WHO I THOUGHT I COULD SEE MYSELF WITH BECAUSE I MEAN NO
ONES EVER TOLD ME THAT THEY THOUGHT OF ME AND I HAVE NEVER HAD ANYONE
SAID THAT THEY'VE LIKED ME BEFORE SO I TOOK IT IN PERSONALLY. ( I KNOW
RIGHT I'M STUPID AND I HAVE A PROBLEM ) SO WE STOPPED TALKING AGAIN. I
ON THE OTHER HAND STILL HAD THES HUGE FEELINGS AND I KEPT MESSAGING HIM
AND TEXTING HIM ASKING WHY HE WASN'T TALKING TO ME AND ASKED IF HE
DIDN'T LIKE ME TO SAY SO. HE WOULD JST IGNORE ME. THEN AROUND NOVEMBER
OF LAST YEAR HE FINALLY ANSWERED AND SAID " IF I IGNORE YOU WHAT DOES
THAT MEAN " I REPLIED BACK SAYING " IT COULD MEAN ANYTHING ALL I WANT TO
KNOW IS IF YOU HAVE FEELINGS FOR ME AND IF YOU LIKE ME JUST SAY SO IF
YOU DON'T THEN TELL ME SO I WOULD STOP BOTHERING YOU" HE DIDN'T REPLY. I
STARTED TO GET OVER HIM AFTER THAT BUT I BEGAN TO GET REALLLY DEPRESSED
AND LIIKE FELT THAT WOW I DNT THINK ILL EVER FIND ANYONE LIKE THAT
AGAIN. DAYS PAST AND I STARTED TO FORGET AND WAS LIKE WHATEVER WHENEVER
I SAW HIM AT SCHOOL. WE'D LOOK AT EACH OTHER FROM TIME TO TIME BUT
NOTHING EVER HAPPEND. THEN JANUARY OF THIS YEAR I STARTED TO MISS HIM
AND ACTUALLY THINK OF HIM AS A PERSON I ACTUALLY LIKE NOT LUST FOR. HE
ALSO WAS THE FIRST GUY THAT MADE ME CRY. THEN FAST FORWARD THREE DAYS
AGO FROM TODAY HE MESSAGES ME SAYING HI. I REPLY BACK. HE TELLS ME NOT
TO TELL ANYONE HE'S TALKING TO ME AGAIN. I TOLD HIM NOT TO WORRY I MEAN
THE ONLY PEOPLE I'VE TOLD THAT WE WERE TALKING WAS MY CLOSEST FRIENDS (
I REGRETED TELLING ANYONE THOUGH ) SO HE TELLS ME THAT HE'S BEEN
THINKING OF ME AGAIN AND THAT IF I'M WILLING TO HOOK UP WITH HIM AGAIN.
HE THEN ASKS ME TO TURN HIM ON. SO I PLAY HIS LITLE GAME AND HE TELLS ME
HE STARTING TO GET HARD AND THAT HE WANTS TO SEE ME AND HE WANTS ME
NOW. HE TELLS ME HE'S GNA THINK ABOUT ME AND HIM BUT THAT I SHOULD KNOW
NOTHING MIGHT HAPPEN. BUT I JST DNT KNOW WHAT TO DO NOW I MEAN HE REALLY
GOT TO ME. IT BECAME A CRUSH THEN LUST THEN AN OBSESSION THEN IT TURNED
MY FEELINGS INTO LOVE LIKE SERIOUSLEY I'VE FALLEN FOR HIM I MEAN I KNOW
THE DIFFERENCE WHEN I THINK THOROUGHLY ABOUT IT. SO IF ANYONE CAN HELP
ME LIKE WHAT SHOULD I DO HOW SHOULD I CONFRONT HIM WE BARELY TALK AT
SCHOOL AND IDK ANYMORE HE MADE ME CRY AND DEPRESSED BEFORE NOW WHAT
SHOULD I DO ?

MY MIND IS TELLING ME TO STOP BEING SO BLIND YOU KNOW HE'S GNA HURT YOU
AND JST CRUSH YOU BUT MY HEARTS TELLING ME NOT TO LOSE HIM AND GO FOR
HIM. HELP ! I REALLY LIKE HIM AND IDK WHAT TO DO.

SORRY TO EVRYONE FOR THIS LONGASS STORY I FEEL STUPID PUTTING THIS ON
THE INTERNET ASKING FOR PEOPLE'S ADVICE BUT I'M DESPERATE.
Update: Sorry everyone for the caps = ]
Update 2: haha im not yelling also haha
Update 3: and thanks everyone for your answers they really do help ! = ]
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