Believe me, you aren't alone. From what I hear, a substantial amount of lesbian women enjoy watching gay male porn, or straight porn, too- the kind that "shouldn't" get them off because it features men. Why might that be? Here's my understanding of it: You don't necessarily have to be attracted to the people on-screen in order to get involved and turned on by the action. Now, if you're watching it and thinking "Man, I'd love for him to pound me.", then I'd wonder about your orientation. But when your thoughts are along the lines of "Ooh, yeah, pound away at him, ooh, suck it." and so on, it's not your attraction to the men, but your ability to get aroused by the blatant sexuality on-screen. I've heard the theory put out there that it's easier for lesbians to enjoy gay male porn because it has a queer element that resonates for them (versus, say, andro-centric heterosexual porn) and because male sexuality is so visible- there's no doubt as to when men are turned on. It makes it that much more visible and arousing. The more I talk and hear from people about the porn they watch, the more I start to see that it has very little to do with their orientation . . . I know straight girls who like watching lesbian porn and lesbians who like gay male porn and even a few gay men who prefer watching straight porn. In the end, only you can really know why it turns you on, but don't worry about it "meaning" anything about your orientation. Trust me- people's porn preferences are all over the board. Hope that helps!