It s an escape from facing overwhelming tasks and other issues. When I sleep I don t have to think about all the things I should be doing. Of course, when I do get up , the problems are still there and worse. Worse because for everyday I spend sleeping new problems or issues arise. It s a catch 22 situation. I don t have the energy or motivation to set baby step goals to help myself. This is depression. Devastatingly debilitating depression. Yes, I see a psychiatrist. Yes, I ve been on just about every antidepressant ever made. Sometimes it helps, sometimes not. All I know is I can t live like this. This is not living, but merely existing. I m a prisoner of my mind, trapped. I can t find a way out. Does anybody else out there feel this way? I don t want to think this I just happening to me. Days without a shower, changing clothes, getting mail, answering the phone. Similar to agoraphobia. Does anyone have suggestions? I can t even force myself to do everyday things most take for granted. Brushing your teeth, washing your face. I just don t care. Wow, I need help. Reading back on what I just wrote is horrible. Help, mayday, mayday, sos, sos.