Here is my suggestion...
get the girls address... and sit down.. and compose a letter.. give is a lot of thought.. wait a week read the letter,, make corrections.. wait a week.. then the first of the year, as Ur new years resolution.. u are gonna put this to rest and put it in the past..
write the lady,, telling her Ur true feelings .. get everything off Ur chest..tell how much u loved her.. and how u dream of her..
and that u are married..
U need to tell Ur wife u are doing this .. not the whole story but that u are doing some soul searching..
once the letter is like u want it.. mail it..
then come new years.. it becomes history.. !!!!!!
U will have corrected any wrongs u did or said to the girl.. U heart will be lighter,, u will not bear the burden and guilt any longer... and it is alot of guilt.. u are carring or known as baggage.. it may be several months before u feel the lighter heart...
if she writes or calls u once she gets the letter..
u need to have Ur head in the right place..
and tell her.. u no longer love her,
u are married,, no meeting up..
STAND UR GROUND, AND UR LOYALTY TO UR WIFE..
if u never hear from her.. be at peace.. U have done Ur part..and God will no Ur heart was in good spirits..
good luck, happy holidays.