Why cant I forget after all these years? Is it Guilt?

I am normally a strong person and can get over most things and move on, but there is one small issue that seems to dog me and I dont know what to do about it. I went out with a girl from age 13 to age 19, and I loved her very much, but we broke up and moved on. I have had many girlfriends since, and have been... show more I am normally a strong person and can get over most things and move on, but there is one small issue that seems to dog me and I dont know what to do about it. I went out with a girl from age 13 to age 19, and I loved her very much, but we broke up and moved on. I have had many girlfriends since, and have been married for 19 years, and she is married with a family too. The problem is I still have dreams about walking along the beach with her and stuff like that, and even though the last time I saw her was 15 years ago, I am always looking out for her at the mall and such, hoping to see her again. Dont get me wrong, I love my wife, and would never go back with this other girl. I believe somehow that she was my soulmate, but I took her for granted because I was young and naive about how to treat people , as I matured I have learned how wrong I was and have changed my ways, sometimes I wish I could just apologise for the way I treated her, and that would at least be a load of my mind.
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