Mostly misinterpretation of the bible.
First I would like to say being Homosexual or Bi-sexual and Christian are not mutually exclusive you can be both not all Christians will accept that and not all religious denominations will accept you but I believe firmly that Christ who is the savior of all, will accept and love you as you are.
You clearly have an attraction to other boys and that is a defining trait of being gay, or bi-sexual. Accept yourself for who you are and others will too.
It’s not a parade not every one will be kind but it is the same for any small group. "Nerds in school are picked on", "the fat kid is always ostracized" and "Gay kids get there share of bullies too" Unfortunately school bullies and popular kids can be unenlightened and cruel.
I understand not wanting to stand out or be defiant.
But above be yourself in the end you will be happier and wont end up living a lie. And trust me its just as bad living a lie as living with the burdens of being gay.
You can choose not to act on your gay impulses but you can't change who you are, and you'll just live an unhappy life hiding from yourself.
"I want God's gay and lesbian children to know of God's unconditional love and acceptance of them as well. We cannot find any condemnation in scripture for committed monogamous same-sex relationships." Rev. Charles Copping, Chaplain of the Arizona Legislature in a letter to legislators, sent 2000-NOV-7;
"The half-dozen biblical references to homosexuality do not reflect what we understand today about loving relationships. This is an identity, not a sin." The Rev. Dan Johnson of Good Samaritan United Methodist Church in Edina, MN.
"I am always amazed at how the Bible, that portrays my Lord embracing the outcasts, touching the lepers, welcoming the Samaritans, not judging the woman taken in the act of adultery, and inviting 'all of ye,' not 'some of ye,' to 'come unto me,' can, in the hands of a few distorted people be turned into a book of hatred, violence and judgment."
"In reality, there are no biblical literalists, only selective literalists. By abolishing slavery and ordaining women, millions of Protestants have gone far beyond biblical literalism. It's time we did the same for homophobia." Rev. William Sloane Coffin
Many Pastors and Religious Scholars have often interpreted passages as condemning men who sexually abuse boys, men who engage in homosexual ritual sex in Pagan temples, men intent on raping other men, etc. They view the Bible as being silent on sexual behavior within a consensual, monogamous committed homosexual relationship.
For example, they might identify the sin of the men of Sodom as explained in Genesis 19 as attempting to rape strangers. Alternatively, they might quote other biblical passages as proof that the main sin of that city was their uncharitable behavior towards strangers, and their uncaring conduct towards the poor, the widows, and needy
Most Compassionate Christians accept homosexuality as an alternative, normal, natural unchangeable sexual orientation for a minority of humans which is accepted by God. It is something that a person is.
Study passages from your favorite English version of the Bible, which is filtered by the theological beliefs and homophobia (if any) of the translators. If so, then you will find many passages in the Bible which condemn certain forms of homosexual behavior.
Follow the ancient Hebrew, Aramaic or Greek writings and attempt to understand precisely what the writers taught. If so, then you will find that these same passages condemn specific homosexual activities (rape, prostitution, etc.) But the Bible appears to be silent about same-sex, committed, monogamous relationships.
There are two Hebrew words which are often associated with homosexual passages and which are mistranslated in many English versions of the Hebrew Scriptures (Old Testament):
Qadesh means a male prostitute who engaged in ritual sex in a Pagan temple. This was a common profession both in ancient Israel and in the surrounding countries. It is often mistranslated simply as "sodomite" or "homosexual." (E.g. the King James Version of the Bible, Deuteronomy 23:17).
The companion word quedeshaw means female temple prostitute. It is frequently mistranslated simply as "whore" or "prostitute." A qadesh and quedeshaw were not simply prostitutes. They had a specific role to play in the temple. They represented a God and Goddess, and engaged in sexual intercourse in that capacity with members of the temple.
To'ebah means a condemned, foreign, Pagan, religious, cult practice, but often simply translated as "abomination." Eating food which contains both meat and dairy products is "To'ebah" A Jew eating with an Egyptian was "To'ebah." A Jew wearing a polyester-cotton garment would be "To'ebah."
In order to understand what the Bible has to say on heterosexual activity, we could consult the original Hebrew texts, dividing all of the references to heterosexual sex into different categories:
sexual abuse of children;
ritual sex in Pagan temples;
non-exploitive, consensual, monogamous sex in a loving relationship, etc.
The final category is the only one that would help us understand what the Bible teaches about heterosexual activity in a committed relationship. After all, a verse which describes how an army kidnapped some female virgins for use as sex slaves does not tell us anything about the role of sex in marriage today. A verse that discusses temple prostitution during the worship of Pagan gods does not instruct us about feelings of romantic love between a man and a woman.
Similarly, in order to comprehend what the Bible says about gay and lesbian relationships, we must pass over the references to homosexual rape, male sexual abuse of boys, and homosexual prostitution, orgies, Pagan sexual rituals in temples, etc. We would be left with only those references relating to consensual sexual activities within homosexual partnerships. There may not be any of these. The Bible may be as silent on loving, committed same-sex partnerships as it is about planes, trains and automobiles.
There are biblical descriptions of three close and intimate relationships between members of the same gender. But there are no unambiguous passages that show that they were sexually active.
The Bible often condemns heterosexual and homosexual exploitive, manipulative sex, and prostitution, but may be totally silent on consensual homosexual relationships.
One is left with many Biblical passages which condemn fornication - sex outside of marriage. If one were to accept these passages as inspired by God, then one can conclude that the Bible considers homosexual sex within a committed relationship as equivalent to a man and woman living together common-law without having being married.
The word "homosexual" generally refers to sexual orientation. People have one of three orientations:
Most are heterosexual: they are sexually attracted only to members of the opposite sex. 85%
A minority are homosexual: they are sexually attracted only to members of the same sex. 1:10 10%
A smaller minority are bisexual: they are attracted to both men and women, but not necessarily to the same degree. about 5%
The term dates from the late 19th century, when human sexuality began to be studied as a science.
The use of the word "homosexual" in English translations of the Bible
There is no term that means homosexual orientation in the original Hebrew, Aramaic and Greek texts of the Bible. The authors of the Bible did not understand sexual orientation and thus did not write about it. Biblical authors had little or no understanding of same-sex committed relationships. Rather, they assumed that everyone was heterosexual, but that some heterosexuals engaged in sex with persons of the same gender as in the greeks. Thus, when you see one of these words in an English translation of the Bible, it is important to dig deeper and find what the original Hebrew or Greek text really means