Well, your problems may not be that temporary but they are a heck of alot more temporary than suicide. So, did you ever hear the story about the 2 brothers that bought a movie theatre. Opening night first brother goes into the theatre looks around and then comes out crying saying the theatre is only half full,...
Best answer: Well, your problems may not be that temporary but they are a heck of alot more temporary than suicide. So, did you ever hear the story about the 2 brothers that bought a movie theatre. Opening night first brother goes into the theatre looks around and then comes out crying saying the theatre is only half full, we're ruined. Second brother goes in, looks around and comes out of the theatre cheering saying the theatre is half full - we're rich.
My point, of course, is that you've gone through alot of sh*t in the past few years and I get that you are frustrated things are not working out, or working out that quickly; yet your situation seems pretty good all things considered. You have a loving family, apparently a pretty good boyfriend and you have managed to find work for maybe half the time since you graduated and this was just 4 years ago. You are still young and I'm sure you will find a great job, or some other path, eventually if you keep looking.
On the other hand, go to a big city and its pretty hard not to find lots of people in far worse situations than you seem to be, and ask any even moderately successful person about the problems and failures they have had to deal with along the way and if you could get them to open up they would probably be able to keep talking all day.
So, sorry the job didn't work out and sorry about the other problems, but its ok. The sun will come up tomorrow, none of this is that big a deal, push through this and there will be plenty of happy days ahead (and some more unhappy ones too, but thats the way it is).
One more story since I'm babbling away here (skip this if you want - its more of the same). Many years ago I was watching a motorcycle race on a dirt track. There was a huge battle between the guy in 2nd place and the guy in 3rd place (someone else was easily leading the race but the 4th place and on were further back). The 2nd and 3rd place guys go up a medium sized jump, collide a little bit in mid-air (completely by accident) and on landing they both drop to the ground. One of them jumps up, gets back on the motorcycle and is off. The other one also jumps up, gets on the motorcyle but stops. All he had to do was hit the gas, race for another 5 minutes (race was nearly over) and was virtually guaranteed 3rd place, possibly 2nd and would've won like $40,000 dollars or so - and this was many years ago when this was way bigger money than it is today. Instead he stopped, kinda started the motorcycle, stopped again, then threw the motorcycle to the dirt (off the track, other racers were in no danger) and walked off the track to his trailer clearly distraught. Several cameramen followed him and the reporters were asking him what happened. He was crying and talking about how unhappy his marriage was and how he just couldn't take it all anymore and you just had to feel bad for the guy as he was clearly going through a really rough time. Then the race ended, he got nothing, and the announcers kept talking about how sad this all was; but I couldn't help but keep thinking - yeah its sad, yeah I'm sorry he has things so rough but what a complete lack of forethought. If he'd just gotten back on the motorcycle and raced another 5 minutes he would've won alot of money and wouldn't that have helped him with all these problems; rather than going home and crying about. I mean while the behavior is understandable, maybe its this view of life that helped create all these problems. So I guess I'm saying don't go throw the entire race just because you missed one (or one more) jump. What your talking about is one heck of alot worse than what he did.
Good luck and god bless.
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