For some reason I've been getting rather emotional recently, I'm not sure what exactly is going on with me. Things I use to be interested in suddenly don't matter. I've graduated college 3 times yet I feel like I've done nothing. I feel like I'm alone yet I have friends but it seems like id rather push them all away. For year I've never wanted kids or marriage yet I find myself playing the father role whenever I'm with my niece. At dinner today my waitress asked me a question and I've been asked hundreds of time "aww is that your daughter?" Usually I'd just say it's just my niece then I'd moved on, but for some reason it's lingering and I've not sure why I keep asking myself "am I actually thinking I want a kid?" My niece is starting school which makes me sad cause I remember when she was first born. I'm regretting all the time I should have spent with her instead of doing other things. Then I have a friends with benefits which I thought was what I wanted but now I realize I just don't want that person. I feel like I'm trapped and I can't get out. I hate my job, I actually am excited to start college again. I feel like my battery is drained. I feel like if I was in a car I'm running on fumes, and I'm just waiting for it to run out, I just feel like I can't breathe or function anymore. I go out and I find myself just thinking about my regrets. What is going on with me help!!!