im a junior on the varsity football team at my high school. its my second year on the team. my coaches saw me do well as a defensive end on jv, so they moved me to defensive tackle this year. that means that i go up against guys who weigh 250+ pounds every day, every play of every practice and game. im a small guy, im 5-5 and only weigh 135. but ive never complained about it, just kinda stick it out. in the first five games of the season i had three sacks (including one that saved the game, im not trying to brag, i just want everything in perspective) a safety, and the second most tackles out of anyone on the defensive line on the team.
i got sick last week and missed two practices and came for a third but was unable to suit up, i just watched from the sidelines. i was really sick, didnt come to school, i wasnt ditching practices. i understood for that weekends game (which was homecoming and that week we found out our defensive coordinator had died of a brain tumor so we were playing the game for him) i wasnt going to start because i had missed practice, but i still expected playing time. i got five plays on defense that game, even with me begging the coaches to put me back in. the head coach (also my position coach) just tapped me on the head and turned away, no matter how much i begged to be put in. im over that, i dont care. i was sick, it makes sense
but this week, i dont have my starting job anymore, even though im healthy and have been at all practices. im perfect to play against this offense because they need someone who’s fast, which is my strength. but they wont start me, no matter what ive done for the team. one player hurt his leg and couldnt play for three weeks but got his starting job back on offense AND defense as soon as he came back. im back after missing two/three practices and i dont get my job back? its bs. the guy starting in my place missed practice yesterday because he was baking for a french project. this is bull. i wasnt even the first person off the bench during practice today, that went to a sophomore on the team who has been backing me up all year. in practice when i finally got in i made a lot of plays, and the coaches always acted surprised when i did.
im ******* pissed. am i wrong to be? i always go to practice, no matter what. last week was the first practice ive missed all year. i never complain and always go as hard as i can, even when im getting double teamed by guys who outweigh me by 75 to 100 pounds. what the ****?