basically I was always skinny (tall with long legs), had a high metabolism, ate whatever i wanted and always wanted to be bigger and have curves because I felt unattractive. So, one summer, when I was fourteen I decided that I would eat as much junk food as I could and sit on my *** all day, which ended up being a lot easier because I got hit by a car causing me to be unable to get out of bed for two weeks (no major injuries), I also developed depression at the time (I had just moved country when I didn't want to.) Anyway, for a whole year after my car accident I basically stayed in bed due to the post traumatic stress and headaches it gave me. I missed a lot of school. I ate as much white processes bread and crappy food as I could because I wanted to gain weight, which I did, at first I was happy with this, for most of the year I didn't give a damn , up until the next summer when I realised that I preferred being skinny. I wanted to lose weight. I had done almost no exercise for a year and I started gradually exercising again. The summer I decided I wanted to be back in shape again (the summer that just passed) I spent in a hot country (where I used to live) and didn't feel like eating anything other than fruit because it was so hot, I also ended up starving myself without realising at first, I lost about 10kg (20lbs) over the course of probably 2 months (less or more I'm not sure) and then continued basically starving myself for a month and a half after. I am currently quite skinny but haven't been eating much, up until the past three weeks where I have started to try and eat normally again, but have been eating very little each day due to my fear of gaining weight. (yes i know i have an eating disorder but im trying to get over it and my parents know about it)I want to be able to eat normally and not obsess over food. But I want to stay skinny and not go back to my highest weight again. Will I ever be naturally thin again and how can I speed up my metabolism?