I'm not one to usually self diagnose, but I've done a lot of extensive research and I'm pretty sure I'm depressed. I have wanted to end my life since I was 8 years old, I'm now 16. Everyday I struggle with small tasks, I get so stressed/frustrated/upset that I self harm. I can barely keep up with my thoughts and I genuinely just cannot stand myself and see myself only as a bother to those around me. When I was 13, a girl in my class reported my self harm to my school which then resulted in my parents guilt tripping me for months before bringing me to a doctor. My mom wouldn't let my doctor prescribe me anything, and eventually he said that due to my age (I was 14 at the appointment) I was probably faking depression. He still referred me to CAMHS, and since my parents were in the room I barely got to talk - it was just my parents saying how I was always so closed off and 'being a downer'. I ended up just lying to the workers which I know was wrong but before I even got a chance to talk they said I just wanted to be popular online so I faked depression to fit in. I've been considering going to a doctor, but I don't want to be put on a medication or sent back to camhs. I just want to know if I truly am depressed. My family and 'friends' all jsut tell me I'm faking it because I'm able to be cheerful sometimes. I just feel so hopeless and lost, like there's no way out and I don't know what to do.
If I went to a doctor alone at 16 or even 17, would they have to tell my parents?6 AnswersMental Health2 years ago