sometimes my teacher would pass out papers and completely skip me. or when she checks homework she completely skips me. When people would choose groups i often am left out and when i go look for a partner everyone has one already. I sit alone at lunch and i sometimes wonder why i am so forgotten. My siblings dont want to be seen with me. My friends dont want anyone to know i secretly hang out with them if i even do. Its always in secret. I wonder why people think im an embarrassment so much. I wonder for a long time about it. No one likes to have me around. Im always a backup person or the last choice. My friends make plans right in front of me without including me in them. kind of makes me feel unimportant and ignored. People online ignore me too and on online games i play so im just wondering how long until i start to become important. I feel like the world just happens around me. I feel like im throwing myself around and dragging myself through life. Feel dead sometimes. After i cry i feel even more dead. If i talk louder people still cant hear me when im speaking. Makes me feel sad because everyone around me has someone. I over hear friends talking about their plans together and how much they admire each other while im sitting alone. I hear laughs and see smiling faces of people just being so happy in another persons presence.Makes me really sad. Why cant i have that. sometimes being this lonely and ignored makes me incredibly sad.