I've been diagnosed with depression and anxiety for almost 6 years now, beginning when I was 15. On and off I self mutilated, and my anxiety has grown with my depression. I didn't try marijuana until I was 19, after two respective years of declining it. I have been smoking it daily for maybe 8 months, and before that i only smoked once a week for 3 months. I know it helps my depression and anxiety, but lately I have been cutting back by about half, and within these past two days I haven't smoked. Two days ago, I cut myself for the first time in almost a year. I missed work because I had a depressed panic attack and felt so sad and confused. The next day I went into a depressed rage, feeling like I was powerless at expressing how I felt. I took all my anger out on my lover and I felt like hurting myself again, I felt like a danger to myself, like I would cut again.
I did smoke and it made me feel better. It took away my unapparent rage, and I'm calmer.
I'm still confused, it's like my depression and everything along with it came back for two days, the two days I hadn't smoked for. If a person misses a day on their depression pill, it can throw them off and put a bump in the road, so can marijuana do this also?