Our relationship was rather complicated...Keep in mind I'm a lesbian and she's (lets say her names Linda) engaged to a guy. We worked together so that's how we met and became friends. I had a crush on her roommate and one night Linda invited me to a party they were having. I said I would go just because I wanted to try and make a move on her roommate. During the party, which was just five people, Linda was kind of all over me. We were playing this drinking game which you got to pick who took all these shots and she would only pick me. We all went down to the hot tub area (I didn't go in but she did) and after a little bit she snuck into the sauna and then called me to come join her. I went in and she pulled me into an embrace. I didn't really think about it too much just because she's engaged. Then everyone else came in and our embrace ended, we hung out in there for like 30 minutes and during that time Linda ignored every in there and was only focusing on me, pretty much sitting on my lap, trying to undress me, etc. We went back up to the apartment and everyone was getting pretty tired so we decided we should go to bed. I was extremely drunk so Linda brought me into bed with her and her friend was going to sleep with us too. I was laying in the middle and I don't remember how this started but before I knew it we were making out, and then somehow we ended up on the floor and we hooked up. The next morning I left really early because I was a little freaked out. She texted me later that day and said we should keep this to ourselves, we haven't talked about it since then and it's been a year. After that happened we became super close friends but she played with my head so much. She'd send me half nude photos of herself but then say it was just because she was feeling down about herself and needed a pick me up. She'd call me over to take care of her when she was sick. She'd flirt with me like no other, etc.
It just confused me so much so one night I confronted her about it. She told me she she wasn't going to leave her fiance and just thought it was all in good fun. Which really hurt me, I felt used so I told her I did. She got really angry with me for saying that and everything went downhill very fast...I was mad at her for using me and she was mad at me for saying she used me so we stopped talking and we haven't talked since June 2011 (it's Feb 20th, 2012). I've tried to contact her and get our friendship back but there hasn't been any response from her.
I miss her friendship. Any ideas on how to get it back or is it a lost cause? Also I apologize for the longgg message.