Im trying to get rid of my anxiety about talking to people. "agoraphobia"
so far i think im progressing, and sometimes i feel like i can take on the world.
But then i remember past embarrassing moments that i just cant forgive myself for.
As soon as these memories come storming back, the anxiety sets in again.
for example, It was a rainy day when i took the bus. i found a seat to sit in and when i did, i found that there was a tiny puddle of water in the seat that i just sat in. the water was clear and almost invisible. anyway, so now it looks like i peed my pants in front of everyone. How embarrassing is that! im getting embarrassed right now just thinking about it.
So now everytime i remember things like this, i start getting anxiety again and im like a turtle hiding in my shell. i try to avoid communicating with people, and i start to worry about whos staring at me and why.
I want to end this, im tired of the feeling, are there any suggestions?